BIG CHANGES!

I made a decision over the weekend to take a position at wasatch academy in mt. pleasant. Yes the name describes the place. It is a small town and it will be a huge change. I have a few good friends living down there already, so that makes it easier. I will be assisting in the dorms unti lthe snowboard program starts, which then I will be come a snowboard director/coach. Sean is coming out with me and he will be the head director for snowboarding and soccer. This decision has been a really ahrd one for me. I needed to quit my job at backcountry.com. I had worked at backcountry.com for almost 2 1/2 years. It was almost a home to me, but I hit as high as I was going to be able to go there, with out more education. So it was time to say good bye. I have been dwelling all weekend on what to do. I would have to start monday at wasatch and quit backcountry, with no 2 weeks notice, nothing. Makes my stomach hurt still thinking of doing that to them, but I gotta look out for myself. At wasatch academy my housing and food is paid for and my snowboarding expenses. So I can go back to college, pay off my medical debt and get my life back on track! My commute to work is 100 steps from my apt. I prayed long and hard about this. Everyone led up to me taking this job. My roommate signing away our lease and me having to move out the weekend I would be moving for my new job. It seems everything fell into place. When i drove down there I felt so at peace. So at home. so calm. If any of you have known me the past couple months, my life has been anything but calm. I had been hospitalized for an ulcer, been battling that still. I have been nervous, hurt, stressed and just not my happy self. This move, this change is in hopes to get my happy good old self back. To be able to strengthen my body back up from a 40 hour a week desk job. Sure I am scared so so much. I don't think I have ever been so scared, but in that moment of scared I am still at peace. Knowing everything will work out for me in the end. I need to fix my life, fix myself and I am taking a leap of faith and making a decision, knowing the lord will support me. It can't be all wrong if I feel at peace about it. So even if it all ends up not working out....I have other options.

I will miss backcountry.com. Specifically the people, seeing the snowboarding fashion, the vendors, some of the rad projects I got to be passionate about. But somewhere in the mix of everything, the good and the bad I lost myself. I had a co-worker make a comment of where is the fun happy emily? we miss her, we hope you can find her again. This was told to me last thursday. That was really my deciding factor. I need that person back...I need to be that fun, bubbly, positive person. I know I have made the right decision. I know tomorrow I may regreat, but I will be reassured. Good bye backcountry.com thanks for everything you have taught me, the gear I have gotten, the opportunities, and the people I have met. It was what I needed at that time in my life. It helped me pick myself up after a horrific injury, now that I am healed and ready to move forward it is time. Time to find myself again.